Faith

-I am the Lord your God. I am holding your hand. And I tell you, "Don't be afraid. I will help you."-
Isaiah 41:13

This is our Bible verse for this week.
Every few weeks the kids and I pick a Bible verse to memorize and practice writing. Lady Bug writes it in her best handwriting and usually adds some form of art around the verse. Wild Thing works on simply copying the verse, and occasionally he will add some art work as well. Now even Little Man is copying the verses too, and doing quite well.

Each verse we pick usually is something that fits our need at that moment. Our last verse was:
-A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.- Proverbs 15:1

The reason for that verse was the continuous arguing and bickering between the kids, and us. We sat one morning and read the verse a few times and discussed what we all thought it meant, and we each gave some examples. The kids did a little roll playing by saying something harsh, and answering, then saying something kind and responding. It was a fun way to get the kids to see the different responses to kind or harsh words.

It was neat how much even Little Man understood and took to heart the Bible verse. One of the afternoons Little Man and Wild Thing were arguing over a toy and from the other room I hear Little Man say, "Don't you remember our Bible verse? A harsh word makes anger but a nice word turns away anger. You should do what the Bible verse says, and talk nice to me."
Of course, I am smiling and almost laughing because Little Man is yelling this all to his brother but at least he remembered and understood the verse.

Anyway, the verse we have right now, is proving to be difficult for me. Not being afraid when there are medical issues with your child is difficult. I think it's even harder at the moment because we had made some great progress and I had begun to feel a weight lift, thinking we were finally out of the woods. But unfortunately, it looks like we are back sliding a little. The progress that has taken so long for Lady Bug, is slowly receding. We are trying to keep things at an even level and just slowly work on forward progress but it is proving to be very difficult once again. Difficult and very frustrating.

With the risk of sounding heartless, my first reactions were ones of selfishness. I was just starting to feel like I could breath again and take some much needed time and focus on myself for awhile. But,
not so. I just pray that we can get ahead and soon be in a peaceful and progressive place once again. It  seems to get harder and harder each time when life hits you in the face with a slamming door. It makes it hard to enjoy the peaceful and happy times, because slowly, you begin to keep watch for the next door coming your way instead of allowing yourself to enjoy those wonderful moments you do have.

Such is life. So on we go, always hoping for the best and dealing with whatever comes our way.
Knowing that no matter how difficult life gets or what is thrown our way, God is on our side and will help us, is comforting. I am not always happy with or understand His timing or His plans, but I am trying to trust that He knows what's best and that He will get us through. 

Now that I have had my little pity party, I do want to say: 

Happy Father's Day to all you dads out there! I hope you have a wonderful day! 

To my dad, 
Happy Father's Day, I love you! 

To my husband,
You are a wonderful daddy to our children. I could not have asked for better. Thank you for loving 
our kids as you do! I love you!

-please ignore any typos, I wrote this post on the iPad and it's horrible for writing a blog post-